I don’t know about you, but I don’t always feel like the daughter of the King, much less that the Holy Spirit lives within me. I make a ton of mistakes. I still get angry, frustrated, and depressed at times. I know no one is perfect. Even if you have been faithfully walking with Christ for years, I know the truth of humanity is that everyone messes up. We all struggle with something regardless if you are Christian or not and no one gets it all right all the time (…unless you’re Jesus). Yet knowing all this, at times I still struggle with feeling like a child of God, feeling the Holy Spirit living within me. Well, thank the Lord that our adoption to sonship, through the Holy Spirit, and our Christian faith is not based on feelings.
It is hard to be a Christian. People are dying for the faith, facing persecution, and oppression. While we do not face any of those harsh realities in America, it is nevertheless hard here too. In the American culture we are taught to be independent, follow your heart, be happy, and do what feels right to you. It’s literally reinforced everywhere: in schools, music, movies. We are taught from a very young age that those are the honorary goals to strive for throughout life.
The problem is that feelings are fleeting and ever changing. So today I might feel on top of the world, but tomorrow I might suffer from feelings of condemnation because of a mistake. Whatever the case, the Bible tells us feelings cannot be trusted. We literally have to unlearn everything we have been taught. Thankfully, we have a God who is never changing and tells us truth through scripture to battle the ever raging war on feelings versus truth.
“He who trusts in his own heart is a fool…” -Proverbs 28:26
“The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately sick.” – Jeremiah 17:9
The human heart, both mine and yours, is deceitful and desperately sick. But even during the times when you don’t feel like a child of God, or like the Holy Spirit is even there, when you feel condemned because you have made yet another mistake, rest assured that that is not the truth. We have hope. There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ. In the battle of feeling and truth, truth always wins. So choose to live, act, and believe based on what the Bible says, not on what your feelings tell you.
“Even if we feel guilty, God is greater than our feelings, and he knows everything.” – 1 John 3:20.
Katrina McElvain is the daughter of Trisha, and oldest of her siblings, Grace and JP. She loves spending time with family and friends, watching movies, dancing, and writing. She teaches dance at night and is a teacher’s aide by day. She also loves Immanuel and listening to the sermons every Sunday morning.