You know that Sunday feeling, right?

We leave church inspired and filled with Truth and encouragement on Sundays … and somewhere along the course of the week, pieces of the message tend to fade and we often lose that Sunday feeling. 

The Monday After {the Sunday Sermon} is our attempt to carry the Sunday message into Monday mornings by walking together and sharing how what we’ve heard on Sunday morning is making a difference in our Mondays, our weeks, our lives. 

The Monday After Sunday, August 11, 2013: Everyday Heroes: A Widow’s Faith {Listen to the message HERE!}

By Hyacynth Worth

I thought I could pray it away.
I thought I could fill the newly hollow space of my unexpectedly achingly empty womb during the weeks after losing our baby with thanksgiving .
I thought I could take note and count all of our blessings — slowly fill the expansive void with every bit of goodness I could count.
But I kept coming up short.
And it wasn’t for lack of blessing.
Rather, it was for lack of understanding that which really fills the open spaces: love.
Not the kind of love that sings you a song or puts a ring on a finger amid the profession of forever. And not the kind of love that walks the hallways at 3 a.m. with a wailing baby in arms so the other can sleep. Not even the kind of love that weathers the storms of three miscarriages in 14 months and then a mysterious illness that leaves the already achingly empty shell of the woman you once knew unable to even stand without reaching out for something to steady her.
It wasn’t for lack of that kind of love; that kind of love is strong and steady and beautiful in my life.
But, rather, the kind of love that knows the container it’s trying to fill so perfectly and so intimately that it first goes in and begins sealing with grace and truth the hairline cracks  where everything is seeping out before it begins filling the emptiness with a kind of perfect love that stems only from being knowing and being known by the One who breathed life into your body with a soul.
I didn’t know how empty I was until I began to realize what fullness meant.
And fullness doesn’t mean being full solely of blessing.
It means being full of the Blesser.
In that space of being filled with the Blesser, I found a Cup Filler who pours into the achingly empty.
In that space of being filled with the Blesser, I found truth in Pastor Joe’s words:
“Emptiness can be a really good thing when God is about to do something miraculous.”
The miraculous in my life has been extraordinarily ordinary.
It is known and being known by the One who made me and loved as thoroughly as possible by the ones with which He’s surrounded me.
It has been being filled with hope even while my womb is still empty.
And it has been being physically restored almost completely to balance by the Spirit immediately after other believers at our church have circled around me and prayed.
In the stories that flood the pages of the Bible
and in the stories that flood our ears and Facebook news feeds
and in the story of my life
the gaping spaces of need almost always proceed the miraculous.
Like the widow who had faith enough in God to gather the jars and go about the task of filling each with a small flask of oil, I’m learning to gather mine in the midst of the seemingly emptiness, too.
Because with God filling, we always have more than what we think we have.
And with God filling, we only run out when there’s no more emptiness left to fill.

Last island hurrah for the year. Say it ain't so.

Hyacynth Worth is grateful daughter to the Perfect Father, wife to John and mother to two little boys and three souls she will one day meet. In between mothering and coordinating social media for Immanuel, she writes about grace, motherhood and living a healthy lifestyle at Undercover Mother.

One thought on “The Monday After: Everyday Heroes: A Widow’s Faith {Hyacynth}

  1. “I didn’t know how empty I was until I began to realize what fullness meant.” and “The miraculous in my life has been extraordinarily ordinary.” and “And with God filling, we only run out when there’s no more emptiness left to fill.” So well put Hy! Powerful words. Thanks for the encouragement and perspective.

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