You know that Sunday feeling, right?

We leave church inspired and filled with Truth and encouragement on Sundays … and somewhere along the course of the week, pieces of the message tend to fade and we often lose that Sunday feeling. 

The Monday After {the Sunday Sermon} is our attempt to carry the Sunday message into Monday mornings by walking together and sharing how what we’ve heard on Sunday morning is making a difference in our Mondays, our weeks, our lives. Each Monday, a voice from the pews will give personal perspective to the words we soaked in on Sunday. 

The Monday After Sunday, May 5, 2013: Life Together {Listen to the message HERE!}

By Hyacynth Worth

The first time it happened, I suffered mostly in silence, by myself.

After all, I’d told myself, I was only five weeks pregnant and sometimes losses happen.

Even though I was reeling inside, I wrote some of my feelings on paper, cried some major tears and assured myself that we’d try again.

But I carried the fear deep inside me.

And then it happened again. That time seven weeks. Still, mostly I ached and groaned and cried with just a few people who couldn’t bear to let us grieve as silently this time,  a second baby having gone into His arms just two months after the first.

When it happened a third time this past March, I couldn’t bear even the thought of going at it alone or even just leaning on a strong few. The loss of a third baby, this one so close to the second trimester, left me in a dark place.

Like a wounded creature who’d fallen in an unfortunate hole, I couldn’t muster the energy to even think about pulling myself out again. I felt broken — broken spirited, broken hearted and even broken physically, and there was no way I could muscle up and heave out.

So this time, I let many people in, people with whom I’ve been building a relationship intentionally. I asked for prayer, I answered phone calls, I responded to messages of help offers — I accepted the beautiful gift of an alive Church rushing to our aid.

And in that, I found new life in the words of Ecclesiastes 4:9-10:

He is so sweet. And his hands are so big for 3 years old.

“Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their labor:
If either of them falls down,
one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up.”

These past seven weeks, I haven’t been grieving and trying to heal alone in the darkness. And when I’ve been tempted to stay stuck, God has been gracious and sent me people who have noticed and cautioned me to turn back toward the Body of Christ. One of my close friends put it perfectly:

“We all get stuck in holes. But you’ve got to put your hand up so we can pull you out.”

Today when Pastors Joe and Bryan spoke about how God intended for us to live connected to each other, I couldn’t hold back my tears of thankfulness to God for His beautiful Church. I couldn’t express enough gratitude that we’d listened to His nudge to go deeper into relationships with people at Immanuel through Vantage Point 3 and other methods of connection. I heard His heart for us through Joe and Bryan as they spoke about the emerging small groups for this fall and thought anew about my friend’s words.

“… You’ve got to put your hand up so we can pull you out.”

It’s so true.

But first we’ve got to allow ourselves to put our feet in and step into the living waters of community with each other.

We can’t do life alone.

And, clearly, we weren’t ever meant to.

Last island hurrah for the year. Say it ain't so.

Hyacynth Worth is grateful daughter to the Perfect Father, wife to John and mother to two little boys and three souls she will one day meet. In between mothering and coordinating social media for Immanuel, she writes about grace, motherhood and living a healthy lifestyle at Undercover Mother.

3 thoughts on “The Monday After: Life Together {Hyacynth}

  1. Hy, I’m so glad that we can journey with you and John through this storm. Thanks for being willing to be vulnerable with your words above.

  2. Hyacynth, Thank you for sharing. I understand where you are coming from as I am there right now too. Thank you for having the courage to share and reach out. It is good to hear these words from someone in the trenches…

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