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by Gracie Adamek
Lately I’ve noticed an extreme lack of motivation. At first, it was just with my school work. Now, I’ve never been particularly enthusiastic about school, so I sort of thought this was normal. You know — the whole “school-is-almost-over-and-I-don’t-have-to-do-work-anymore” thing? Yeah, well, that has been going on since probably March, which is early, even for me.
I thought I would have more motivation for every-day tasks once school ended, but I’m not seeing much evidence of that. The worst part about this is that my laziness is transferring even into my relationship with God. And that is bad news, let me tell ya.
With youth group and Deeper, my weekly Bible study during the school year, ending, God almost gets pushed to the side. Especially with summer just starting, all I can think about is how much fun I’m going to have hanging out with my friends and going on vacations and things of that nature.
Cracking my Bible open or waking up early to do devotions hardly ever enters my mind. Then later on I feel terrible that I don’t really read my Bible on a regular basis anymore so I force myself to read. But in doing that I don’t get anything out of my personal time with God, and I just grow frustrated. It’s a vicious cycle. But I really want to get out of this slump.
A few days ago I decided I would just take a step back and reevaluate my relationship with Christ. I asked myself a tough question: Why? Why am I reading my Bible? I don’t mean that as “oh why does it even matter? Why am I doing this?” I mean I had to ask myself about motives. Am I just reading to say I did? Or just to feel like I’m a “good Christian”? Or maybe I thought it would make God happy if I read every daily. And I found that the answer to all of those questions was “yes”. I wasn’t really trying to strengthen my walk with Christ. I was just being lazy and trying to calm my conscience.
It didn’t work.
My mind has honestly been going crazy. It’s like God is continually breaking me down until He completely has my attention. It’s working because I’m slowly turning around.
Side note: I don’t know how many of you have read my past blogs, but if you have you know about my best friend, Peggy. I talk about her often. Well anyway, Peggy was raised in a strictly non-Christian home. For the past few years, God has called me to minister to Peggy in big ways. She recently said she accepted Christ but about two weeks ago told me that she was too insecure to really give her life to God. She’s afraid people would think badly about her if they found out she trusted Jesus with her life, especially her family would ridicule her. If everyone could keep her in prayer that would be fantastic. Also, if you could pray that God would really take control of my ministry with her, it would mean the world to me! 🙂
Gracie Adamek is a junior at Lakes Community High School. She enjoys singing, acting and spending time with friends! Gracie is so grateful for this opportunity and hopes to glorify God 100% through this!